9:21 AM
Wednesday morning
Dear Diary
I listened to my gut on Monday. After talking to Gina and Chaz, I decided to tell Taylor the truth. This is why I’m not in school today. It will all make sense. No details left out.
So, after I told Taylor about all the secrets that I’ve been hiding from her, she got quiet. I mean, she was quiet while I was telling her, but she got quiet. As I finished telling her, I made sure she was still there. I called her name into the phone a good many times by the time she finally responded. Or yelled, bitched, and everything relatable to thos
“How could you Chanel?! I thought we were best friends. We even made a pact to never keep any secrets from each other! But now you choose to tell me all of this AFTER Chaz and Gina already found out?” she yelled, as loud as she could into the phone.
“Listen Tay. Can you please stop yelling? It’s not that necessary. Besides, they already knew about it. Apparently, it was pretty obvious. And I only did it to keep you from hurting.”
“Chanel, I don’t care about not having a date to prom if you’re gonna keep secrets like these away from me! It has been about a month since the first event last happened. How come you couldn’t have told me then?”
“You was so happy when you found out Josh wanted to be your prom date. I didn’t want him to stand you up on prom night.”
“Why would he have done that?” she asked.
“He said that if I told anybody about what happened while we were in the stall, he would stand you up after you finished getting ready for prom. It would be a waste of hours and hours of preparing. You would just sit at home, crying, in your pretty dress while the rest of us have the time of our lives, as he put it.”
“So, you didn’t want me to be stood up on prom night? That’s why you kept the secrets from me?”
“Yes. That’s exactly why.”
I waited for her response to this. It wasn’t what I expected either.
“Are you sure Chanel? Is there anything else you need to tell me?” she asked.
Oh, yeah, sure. Like the fact that I like Josh, Chaz likes me, and Josh can possibly like me. It’s a love triangle, I told myself.
“No, nothing else. Just that.” I told her.
“Are you sure? If you don’t tell me now, I will eventually find out later.” she told me.
“I already know that, Taylor. Ok? That’s it. Nothing more.”
Though, there was plenty more. More than anybody knew.
“Ok, I’ll believe you. BUT, if there is anything that you never told me that Gina and Chaz know about, then that would be the end of our best friendship, understand?” she told me.
“I understand perfectly, Taylor. There is absolutely, positively, nothing else more. And if you hear anything, contact me about it. People lie, Tay. You know that for a fact.”
“Of course I do. I mean, you did.” she said.
I wish I could’ve killed her right then and there after that remark, you know, if she wasn’t on the other side of the phone.
“I didn’t mean it like that, Chanel. I mean like, you lied to me for a month. No nothing about what happened, y’know?”
“I know. Perfectly.”
Then I hung up.
I guess Gina was right. Taylor really did have another side to her.
And by that, I mean an extra bitchy side added to the bitch in her.
What are you waiting for, Chanel? Just release everything in your system. I tell myself.
I would. I will.
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